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Jehovah Jireh--My Provider

Jehovah Jireh--God will provide.

Have you ever felt at a loss for where the provision for a certain need was going to come from? Spent hours going over the budget and readjusting the totals in different categories trying to make room? I'm a budgeter--not sure it is a real word--but I like budgets. I like to have the columns even out and know where and what and how--I like having it all controlled.
So when the numbers don't add up or there is an unexpected expense, my stomach tightens. The columns don't match and the balance is off. This does not make me happy.

Jehovah Jireh.
It is one thing to know a truth in my mind and another thing to hold it true in my heart.
Recently, instead of fretting over the unexpected expenses, I challenged myself to really make this name of His true in my heart.

Provider:(noun) a person or thing that provides (dictionary.com)

He will meet all my needs according to His great riches. (Philippians 4:19)
He knows what I need before I ask Him. (Matthew 6:8)
He challenges me not to worry about tomorrow. (Matthew 6:34)
He promises me that He will  never leave me nor forsake me. (Deuteronomy 31:8 and Joshua 1:9)

Jehovah Jireh-- He provided...
One unexpected expense after another over the course of the last several months, He provided the funds to cover them. And here's the thing--that provision didn't come in the form of a magic check or winning a contest, it came in unexpected ways like redeeming points for a gift card from a coupon app; and discovering an outstanding balance that a company owed me, etc.
Now this is where I really stand in awe of Him... all those unused points, unknown balances, forgotten savings, etc. had been accumulating over time. Meaning that He knew months ahead of time that we would need those finances at this particular time.
He met all my needs (even months ahead of time!) (Phil. 4:19)
He knew what I was going to need before I asked Him. (Matt. 6:8)
He knew I didn't need to worry about tomorrow. (Matt.6:34)
He didn't leave me with those unexpected expenses--He was, in fact, a step ahead and always by my side. (Deut.31:8 and Joshua 1:9)

"I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly; I do not seal my lips; as you know, O LORD. I do not hide your righteousness in my heart; I speak of your faithfulness and salvation. I do not conceal your love and your truth from the great assembly." (Psalm 40:9-10)

God is faithful. He lives life with me when I allow Him to.
I can't help but feel like He somewhat chuckles when I have a moment of amazement that He came through after all.

Jehovah Jireh--my Provider

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