A Mother's Prayer Journal

Pages filled with anxious thoughts.
Self rebukes over faithless walks.

Tear stained ink blots.
Happily scribbled exclamation dots.

Trials recorded and lives unfolded,
Over the creased lines of stories told.

Pleas for wisdom.
Cries for mercy.

Answered petitions,
And surprised renditions
Of stories with newly twisted plots.

Desperation.
Exasperation.

Written daily!
Then forgotten lazily...

Stories of successful potties.
Frustration with consistent naughty.

Prayers of hope.
Prayers for peace.

Memory verses needed as
Persistent sources of daily strength.

Determined stances.
Defeated chances.

Joy filled exclamations.
Laughed over situations.

Healing supplications.
Worship then adoration.

These are what fill my pages.
Stories of my children's lives.
Written with a fiery drive
By a mother who strives
To cover them in prayer.

Memories for one day soon.
A notebook to be passed on to you.
A family recipe better than any heirloom.
A mother's prayer journal.

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Because of great empathy, Jesus wept

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I'm Not Losing Me

I had a bad day yesterday. You know the one—a handful of little aggravating circumstances that haven’t seen results yet topped with a new unforeseen unfortunate circumstance and I broke... big, hard sobs that I had to run and stifle lest I terrify my children. My bed was my place of comfort until I could cry no more. God, where are you? My heart cried. Silence I know the right answers, the right Scriptures, the right attitudes; but at that moment I was broken—my shield and sword no longer defending but laid aside next to my crumbled self. Depression’s ugly face taunted me and tempted me to let him hold my hand. This foe whom I hadn’t seen in a long time was here again waiting for me to decide whose side I was really on. God, why won’t you just miraculously fix this growing lists of challenges I’m facing? Haven’t I tithed faithfully and given offerings? Haven’t I prayed, and fought with Scriptures, and served You? Why am I in this spot?! The vision of Peter

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